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Postpartum Depression

You have just completed one of the most grueling journeys of your life

PREGNANCY

Hospital

You are exhausted after hours of labor followed by delivery, or you are just waking up from theatre feeling all drowsy as the pain begins to kick in fast and furious

You are tired: mind, body and spirit

What you want right now, what your mind, body and spirit is craving for is a getaway

You want to float to an island far away. A place where you will be pampered back to health and reinvigorated.

You want rest, uninterrupted rest

You want to sleep, to sleep until you do not want to sleep no more.

BUT NOOOOOOOOOO

 

As you are entertaining thoughts of rest, peace and quiet in enters disruption.

First the nurses who want to inject you with medicine, they also want you to swallow some, they need to check the canula on your arm to administer more medicine

Next the pediatric nurses come in grinning from ear to ear wheeling in your new born baby

You want to say no, to ask them to take the baby back for a while because you are not in a position to handle another life let alone your own . . .

The nurse takes the baby and puts it on your breast, all the time talking to you about the importance of baby being put on breast soon after birth

You are still lying down on your bed, which is now being inclined upwards for a good breastfeeding posture

All the while, you are oscillating between dreamland and reality thanks partly to the pain medication.

The guests start to trickle in and everyone has something to say, advice to give. Your plastic smile is on the verge of cracking

Discharge

You are discharged and you are excited to go home, to your house but most importantly to your bed.

Then the nightmare begins!

Nobody warned you that unlike hospital where the nurses would come in to assist at home you are on your own.

This baby is now 100% dependent on you and you are expected to be upto the task.

They want to breastfeed all the time (or so it seems to you) . . .

They cry because of colic . . .

They poop every 5 minutes (atleast in your head) . . .

And the worst is the switch between days and nights!!!!!!

Depressed

You begin to snap at every cry.

Shout at the baby, then begin crying with them . . .

Exhaustion is tearing you down and you do not have any idea what to do

This baby that you waited for, enjoyed babyshowers for, were excited to welcome into your life has now become a source of unimaginable pain.

You are tired! and You do not even know how to express it:

That you feel physically drained

That you feel inadequate in every way

That you feel emotionally unable to handle all that is going on

That you just want a BREAK!

And no:

You are not an ingrate

You are not selfish

You are not pretending

You are not being petty

Help

You are not alone

They is nothing wrong with you

You are not the only one going through these emotions, feelings, state – there are other Mums battling the same feelings, other Mums have battled the same and came out strong

There is help available for you

Just ask Mammi, just reach out.

You will be pleasantly surprised.

 

3 Comment(s)

  1. Caroline chemnangoi
    June 21, 2018

    Very informative. Keep them comimg amd God bless you.

  2. Ciku
    June 24, 2018

    Respect to all Moms! They are the real ninjas! Thanks for sharing the story behind the story and encouraging moms to reach out for help.

  3. Irene
    June 24, 2018

    I completely agree especially if it is a CS. It xan be draining but the beauty is that each day the baby is growing and maturing they are progressing towards becoming a more indepedent being so that gives you hope.

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